To be... or not to be

So as I've done more research,

I'm thinking - do I want to be a lawyer?

I'd told myself that I'd like to do international human rights law - but really, the interesting cases that I've read about would probably come to me perhaps once in my lifetime.

I'd dreamed of
seeing war criminals put in jail,
having rapists convicted with ever longer sentences,
striking down unjust and discriminatory laws,
helping refugee and poor immigrant claims,
slamming corporations and those who commit white-collar crimes...

But the reality of it seems to be
trying to maximize monetary gains in messy family break-ups,
helping corporations justify their unscrupulous tactics,
defending potentially guilty offenders,
and most probably - be engaged in completely mundane tasks of which have no relevance to me except feeding my paycheck (all while dedicating myself 16 hours a day to the job).

My needs for justice will more often than not be unmet. Perhaps I'd slack off because I couldn't identify with what I was doing anymore.
And when it comes down to it - perhaps I am a bit too fragile for the job. High levels of stress have not been met by grace in my case.

I mean, I am capable of being aggressive, impartial, and decisive
- but those are certainly not my strongest enduring traits.

But we'll see.
Constitutional law still holds promise... working as a lawyer for an NGO would probably be ok as well. Anyway, as October approaches, you will hear more thoughts on this...